Wow… this was something.My heart is racing as I trace your pain and questions with the finger of my own mind, as though those thoughts in fact were mine. Like a Tetris game of so many emotions and the music gets faster as you go along. I am so broken for you to have gone through it all, and how can you possibly convey this library of emotion when you simply share, “oh yes, I was engaged to a man named Jared, and he was killed”.
I too, feel like only a half of a person, carefully giving my self time to be sad and then being ready for spurts of normal. Maggie says I’m a highly sensitive person, which I am! So is she.
So are you. So imaginative… which can be a gift and a curse. Thank you for being so willing to talk about ALL the thoughts.
Thanks for the encouragement Jacqui! Jared and I never had the chance to be engaged… his parents told me after he died that he had told them he was going to propose to me, so even that was stolen .
I appreciate your word so much though! I hope that by being able to share the details people will be able to have a deeper glimpse of how God stood by me even though I had turned my back on Him at the time.
Wow… this was something.My heart is racing as I trace your pain and questions with the finger of my own mind, as though those thoughts in fact were mine. Like a Tetris game of so many emotions and the music gets faster as you go along. I am so broken for you to have gone through it all, and how can you possibly convey this library of emotion when you simply share, “oh yes, I was engaged to a man named Jared, and he was killed”.
I too, feel like only a half of a person, carefully giving my self time to be sad and then being ready for spurts of normal. Maggie says I’m a highly sensitive person, which I am! So is she.
So are you. So imaginative… which can be a gift and a curse. Thank you for being so willing to talk about ALL the thoughts.
Thanks for the encouragement Jacqui! Jared and I never had the chance to be engaged… his parents told me after he died that he had told them he was going to propose to me, so even that was stolen .
I appreciate your word so much though! I hope that by being able to share the details people will be able to have a deeper glimpse of how God stood by me even though I had turned my back on Him at the time.
Beautiful my friend just beautiful